Chapter 2

 

  THERE IS A SOLUTION

 

WE, OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, know

thousands of men and women who were once

just as hopeless as Bill. Nearly all have recovered.

They have solved the drink problem.

  We are average Americans. All sections of this

country and many of its occupations are represented,

as well as many political, economic, social, and reli-

gious backgrounds. We are people who normally

would not mix. But there exists among us a fellowship,

a friendliness, and an understanding which is inde-

scribably wonderful. We are like the passengers of a

great liner the moment after rescue from shipwreck

when camaraderie, joyousness and democracy pervade

the vessel from steerage to Captain’s table. Unlike the

feelings of the ship’s passengers, however, our joy in

escape from disaster does not subside as we go our in-

dividual ways. The feeling of having shared in a com-

mon peril is one element in the powerful cement

which binds us. But that in itself would never have

held us together as we are now joined.

 

     Countless times, in as many cities and hamlets, we re-

  enacted the story of Eddie Rickenbacker and his coura-

  geous company when their plane crashed in the Pacific.

  Like us, they had suddenly found themselves saved from

  death, but still floating upon a perilous sea. How well they

  saw that their common welfare came first. None might be-

  come selfish of water or bread. Each needed to consider the

  others, and in abiding faith they knew they must find their

  real strength. And this they did find, in measure to tran-

  scend all the defects of their frail craft, every test of

  uncertainty, pain, fear, and despair, and even the death of

  one.

   T&T 129  Tradition One

 

   The tremendous fact for every one of us is that we

have discovered a common solution. We have a way

out on which we can absolutely agree, and upon which

we can join in brotherly and harmonious action.

 

  “Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends

  upon A.A. unity.”

   T&T 129  Tradition One    

 

       This

is the great news this book carries to those who suffer

from alcoholism.

   (See BB 153:2)

 

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 18  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

   An illness of this sort-and we have come to believe

it an illness-involves those about us in a way no other

human sickness can. If a person has cancer all are

sorry for him and no one is angry or hurt. But not so

with the alcoholic illness, for with it there goes anni-

hilation of all the things worth while in life. It engulfs

all whose lives touch the sufferer’s. It brings misun-

derstanding, fierce resentment, financial insecurity,

disgusted friends and employers, warped lives of

blameless children, sad wives and parents-anyone

can increase the list.

 

  No other kind of bankruptcy is like this one. Alcohol,

  now become the rapacious creditor, bleeds us of all

  self-sufficiency and all will to resist its demands. Once

  this stark fact is accepted, our bankruptcy as going

  human concerns is complete.

   T&T  21  Step One

 

   We hope this volume will inform and comfort those

who are, or who may be affected. There are many.

   Highly competent psychiatrists who have dealt with

us have found it sometimes impossible to persuade an

alcoholic to discuss his situation without reserve.

Strangely enough, wives, parents and intimate friends

usually find us even more unapproachable than do the

psychiatrist and the doctor.

   But the ex-problem drinker who has found this solu-

tion, who is properly armed with facts about himself,

can generally win the entire confidence of another al-

coholic in a few hours. Until such an understanding

is reached, little or nothing can be accomplished.

   (See BB 89:1)

 

  Just as firmly bound by obligation are the members of

  Alcoholics Anonymous, who have demonstrated that they

  can help problem drinkers as others seldom can. The

  unique ability of each A.A. to identify himself with, and

  bring recovery to, the newcomer in no way depends upon

  his learning, eloquence, or on any special individual skills.

  The only thing that matters is that he is an alcoholic who

  has found a key to sobriety.

   T&T 150-151  Tradition Five 

 

   That the man who is making the approach has had

the same difficulty, that he obviously knows what he is

talking about, that his whole deportment shouts at the

new prospect that he is a man with a real answer, that

he has no attitude of Holier Than Thou, nothing what-

ever except the sincere desire to be helpful;

   (See BB 95:1)

           that there

are no fees to pay, no axes to grind, no people to

please, no lectures to be endured-these are the condi­

 

  THERE IS A SOLUTION  19

 

tions we have found most effective.

   (See BB 160 Bottom)

       After such an ap-

proach many take up their beds and walk again.

   (See BB 153:2)

   None of us makes a sole vocation of this work, nor

do we think its effectiveness would be increased if we

did.

 

  “Alcoholics Anonymous should remain forever nonprofessional,

  but our service centers may employ special workers.”

   T&T 166  Tradition Eight

 

        We feel that elimination of our drinking is but

a beginning. A much more important demonstration

of our principles lies before us in our respective homes,

occupations and affairs.

   (See BB 122:3, 127:2)

         All of us spend much of our

spare time in the sort of effort which we are going to

describe. A few are fortunate enough to be so situated

that they can give nearly all their time to the work.

   If we keep on the way we are going there is little

doubt that much good will result, but the surface of

the problem would hardly be scratched. Those of us

who live in large cities are overcome by the reflection

that close by hundreds are dropping into oblivion

every day.

   (See BB 163:2)

        Many could recover if they had the oppor-

tunity we have enjoyed. How then shall we present

that which has been so freely given us?

   We have concluded to publish an anonymous vol-

ume setting forth the problem as we see it. We shall

bring to the task our combined experience and knowl-

edge. This should suggest a useful program for any-

one concerned with a drinking problem.

   Of necessity there will have to be discussion of

matters medical, psychiatric, social, and religious. We

are aware that these matters are, from their very na-

ture, controversial. Nothing would please us so much

as to write a book which would contain no basis for

contention or argument. We shall do our utmost to

achieve that ideal. Most of us sense that real tolerance

of other people’s shortcomings and viewpoints and a

respect for their opinions are attitudes which make us

 

 20  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

more useful to others.

   (See BB 84:2)

      Our very lives, as ex-problem

drinkers, depend upon our constant thought of others

and how we may help meet their needs.

   You may already have asked yourself why it is that

all of us became so very ill from drinking. Doubtless

you are curious to discover how and why, in the face

of expert opinion to the contrary, we have recovered

from a hopeless condition of mind and body. If you

are an alcoholic who wants to get over it, you may

already be asking-“What do I have to do?’’

   It is the purpose of this book to answer such ques-

tions specifically. We shall tell you what we have

done.

   (See BB 17:3, 29:3, 153:2)

 Before going into a detailed discussion, it may

be well to summarize some points as we see them.

   How many times people have said to us: “I can take

it or leave it alone. Why can’t he?’’ “Why don’t you

drink like a gentleman or quit?’’ “That fellow can’t

handle his liquor.’’ “Why don’t you try beer and

wine?’’ “Lay off the hard stuff.’’ “His will power must

be weak.’’ “He could stop if he wanted to.’’ “She’s

such a sweet girl, I should think he’d stop for her

sake.’’ “The doctor told him that if he ever drank

again it would kill him, but there he is all lit up again.’’

   Now these are commonplace observations on drink-

ers which we hear all the time. Back of them is a

world of ignorance and misunderstanding. We see

that these expressions refer to people whose reactions

are very different from ours.

   (See BB 23:3; 107:1; 139:2)

   Moderate drinkers have little trouble in giving up

liquor entirely if they have good reason for it. They

can take it or leave it alone.

   Then we have a certain type of hard drinker. He

may have the habit badly enough to gradually impair

 

  THERE IS A SOLUTION  21

 

him physically and mentally. It may cause him to die

a few years before his time. If a sufficiently strong rea-

son-ill health, falling in love, change of environment,

or the warning of a doctor-becomes operative, this

man can also stop or moderate, although he may find

it difficult and troublesome and may even need med-

ical attention.   (See BB 39:1,108 Bottom - 109)

   But what about the real alcoholic? He may start off

as a moderate drinker; he may or may not become a

continuous hard drinker; but at some stage of his

drinking career he begins to lose all control of his

liquor consumption, once he starts to drink.

   (See BB xxviii:1, 44:1, 109:1)

   Here is the fellow who has been puzzling you, espe-

cially in his lack of control. He does absurd, incredi-

ble, tragic things while drinking. He is a real Dr.

Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. He is seldom mildly intoxicated.

He is always more or less insanely drunk. His disposi-

tion while drinking resembles his normal nature but

little. He may be one of the finest fellows in the world.

Yet let him drink for a day, and he frequently becomes

disgustingly, and even dangerously anti-social.

   (See BB 109:1, 156:4)

               He has

a positive genius for getting tight at exactly the wrong

moment, particularly when some important decision

must be made or engagement kept. He is often per-

fectly sensible and well balanced concerning every-

thing except liquor, but in that respect he is incredibly

dishonest and selfish.

   (See BB xxx:4, 7:2, 22:2, 107:3)

      He often possesses special abili-

ties, skills, and aptitudes, and has a promising career

ahead of him. He uses his gifts to build up a bright

outlook for his family and himself, and then pulls the

structure down on his head by a senseless series of

sprees. He is the fellow who goes to bed so intoxicated

he ought to sleep the clock around. Yet early next

 

 22  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

morning he searches madly for the bottle he misplaced

the night before. If he can afford it, he may have

liquor concealed all over his house to be certain no

one gets his entire supply away from him to throw

down the wastepipe. As matters grow worse, he be-

gins to use a combination of high-powered sedative

and liquor to quiet his nerves so he can go to work.

Then comes the day when he simply cannot make it

and gets drunk all over again. Perhaps he goes to a

doctor who gives him morphine or some sedative with

which to taper off. Then he begins to appear at hos-

pitals and sanitariums.

   (See BB 107 Top, 109 Bottom, 110:1)

   This is by no means a comprehensive picture of the

true alcoholic, as our behavior patterns vary. But this

description should identify him roughly.

   Why does he behave like this? If hundreds of ex-

periences have shown him that one drink means an-

other debacle with all its attendant suffering and

humiliation, why is it he takes that one drink? Why

can’t he stay on the water wagon? What has become

of the common sense and will power that he still some-

times displays with respect to other matters?

   (See BB xxx:4, 7:2, 21:2, 107:3)

   Perhaps there never will be a full answer to these

questions. Opinions vary considerably as to why the

alcoholic reacts differently from normal people. We

are not sure why, once a certain point is reached, little

can be done for him. We cannot answer the riddle.

   We know that while the alcoholic keeps away from

drink, as he may do for months or years, he reacts

much like other men. We are equally positive that

once he takes any alcohol whatever into his system,

something happens, both in the bodily and mental

sense, which makes it virtually impossible for him to

  

 

  THERE IS A SOLUTION  23

 

stop. The experience of any alcoholic will abundantly

confirm this.

    (See BB xxx: 5)

   These observations would be academic and point-

less if our friend never took the first drink, thereby

setting the terrible cycle in motion. Therefore, the

main problem of the alcoholic centers in his mind,

rather than in his body.  (See BB 35 Top)

 

  The tyrant alcohol wielded a double-edged sword over

  us: first we were smitten by an insane urge that condemned

  us to go on drinking, and then by an allergy of the body that

  insured we would ultimately destroy ourselves in the process.

   T&T 22  Step Two

 

       If you ask him why he started

on that last bender, the chances are he will offer you

any one of a hundred alibis. Sometimes these excuses

have a certain plausibility, but none of them really

makes sense in the light of the havoc an alcoholic’s

drinking bout creates. They sound like the philosophy

of the man who, having a headache, beats himself on

the head with a hammer so that he can’t feel the ache.

If you draw this fallacious reasoning to the attention

of an alcoholic, he will laugh it off, or become irri-

tated and refuse to talk.

   (See BB 107:2)

   Once in a while he may tell the truth. And the

truth, strange to say, is usually that he has no more

idea why he took that first drink than you have. Some

drinkers have excuses with which they are satisfied

part of the time. But in their hearts they really do not

know why they do it. Once this malady has a real

hold, they are a baffled lot. There is the obsession that

somehow, someday, they will beat the game. But they

often suspect they are down for the count.  (See BB 30:1, 110 Top, 151:1)

   How true this is, few realize. In a vague way their

families and friends sense that these drinkers are ab-

normal, but everybody hopefully awaits the day when

the sufferer will rouse himself from his lethargy and

assert his power of will.

   (See BB 107:1)

   The tragic truth is that if the man be a real alco-

holic, the happy day may not arrive. He has lost

 

 24  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

control. At a certain point in the drinking of every

alcoholic, he passes into a state where the most power-

ful desire to stop drinking is of absolutely no avail.

This tragic situation has already arrived in practically

every case long before it is suspected.

   The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet ob-

scure, have lost the power of choice in drink. Our so-

called will power becomes practically nonexistent.

We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our con-

sciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suf-

fering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago.

We are without defense against the first drink.

   The almost certain consequences that follow taking

even a glass of beer do not crowd into the mind to

deter us. If these thoughts occur, they are hazy and

readily supplanted with the old threadbare idea that

this time we shall handle ourselves like other people.  (See BB 36:2, 37:3)

There is a complete failure of the kind of defense that

keeps one from putting his hand on a hot stove.  (See BB 84 Bottom)

   The alcoholic may say to himself in the most casual

way, “It won’t burn me this time, so here’s how!’’ Or

perhaps he doesn’t think at all. How often have some

of us begun to drink in this nonchalant way, and after

the third or fourth, pounded on the bar and said to

ourselves, “For God’s sake, how did I ever get started

again?’’ Only to have that thought supplanted by

“Well, I’ll stop with the sixth drink.’’ Or “What’s the

use anyhow?’’  (See BB 6 Top)

   When this sort of thinking is fully established in an

individual with alcoholic tendencies, he has probably

placed himself beyond human aid, and unless locked

up, may die or go permanently insane. These stark

and ugly facts have been confirmed by legions of alco-­

 

  THERE IS A SOLUTION  25

 

holics throughout history. But for the grace of God,

there would have been thousands more convincing

demonstrations. So many want to stop but cannot.

 

   There is a solution. Almost none of us liked the self-

searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of

shortcomings which the process requires for its suc-

cessful consummation. But we saw that it really

worked in others,

   (See BB 50:4)

         and we had come to believe in the

hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living

it.

   (See BB 152 Top)

    When, therefore, we were approached by those in

whom the problem had been solved, there was nothing

left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual

tools laid at our feet. We have found much of heaven

and we have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of

existence of which we had not even dreamed.  (See BB  8:2)    

   The great fact is just this, and nothing less: That we

have had deep and effective spiritual experiences*   (See BB 164:2)

which have revolutionized our whole attitude toward

life, toward our fellows and toward God’s universe.

   (See BB 25:2, 50:4, 84 Top [9], 567:4)

The central fact of our lives today is the absolute cer-

tainty that our Creator has entered into our hearts and

lives in a way which is indeed miraculous. He has

commenced to accomplish those things for us which

we could never do by ourselves.  (See BB 11:3, 84 Top [12])   

   If you are as seriously alcoholic as we were, we

believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution. We were

in a position where life was becoming impossible, and

if we had passed into the region from which there is

no return through human aid, we had but two alterna-

tives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out

the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best

we could;

   (See BB 152 Top)

      and the other, to accept spiritual help.

   (See BB 44:2)

       This

 

*Fully explained-Appendix II.

 

 26  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

we did because we honestly wanted to, and were will-

ing to make the effort.

   A certain American business man had ability, good

sense, and high character. For years he had floundered

from one sanitarium to another. He had consulted the

best known American psychiatrists. Then he had gone

to Europe, placing himself in the care of a celebrated

physician (the psychiatrist, Dr. Jung) who prescribed

for him. Though experience had made him skeptical,

he finished his treatment with unusual confidence.

His physical and mental condition were unusually

good.

   (See BB 151 Bottom)

 Above all, he believed he had acquired such a

profound knowledge of the inner workings of his mind

and its hidden springs that relapse was unthinkable.

   (See BB 7:2, 39:1, 40:2, 42 Top)

Nevertheless, he was drunk in a short time. More

baffling still, he could give himself no satisfactory ex-

planation for his fall.

   So he returned to this doctor, whom he admired,

and asked him point-blank why he could not recover.

He wished above all things to regain self-control. He

seemed quite rational and well-balanced with respect

to other problems. Yet he had no control whatever

over alcohol. Why was this?

   He begged the doctor to tell him the whole truth,

and he got it. In the doctor’s judgment he was utterly

hopeless; he could never regain his position in society

and he would have to place himself under lock and

key or hire a bodyguard if he expected to live long.

That was a great physician’s opinion.

   But this man still lives, and is a free man. He does

not need a bodyguard nor is he confined. He can go

anywhere on this earth where other free men may go

 

    THERE IS A SOLUTION   27

 

without disaster, provided he remains willing to main-

tain a certain simple attitude.

   Some of our alcoholic readers may think they can do

without spiritual help. Let us tell you the rest of the

conversation our friend had with his doctor.

   The doctor said: “You have the mind of a chronic

alcoholic. I have never seen one single case recover,

where that state of mind existed to the extent that it

does in you.’’ Our friend felt as though the gates of

hell had closed on him with a clang.

   He said to the doctor, “Is there no exception?’’

   “Yes,’’ replied the doctor, “there is. Exceptions to

cases such as yours have been occurring since early

times. Here and there, once in a while, alcoholics

have had what are called vital spiritual experiences.

   (See BB 43:3, 44:1)

To me these occurrences are phenomena. They ap-

pear to be in the nature of huge emotional displace-

ments and rearrangements. Ideas, emotions, and

attitudes which were once the guiding forces of the

lives of these men are suddenly cast to one side, and a

completely new set of conceptions and motives begin

to dominate them.

   (See BB 84 Top [9], 567:4)

          In fact, I have been trying to

produce some such emotional rearrangement within

you. With many individuals the methods which I em-

ployed are successful, but I have never been success-

ful with an alcoholic of your description.” *

   Upon hearing this, our friend was somewhat re-

lieved, for he reflected that, after all, he was a good

church member. This hope, however, was destroyed

by the doctor’s telling him that while his religious

convictions were very good, in his case they did not

spell the necessary vital spiritual experience.

   (See BB 44:4, 62:2)

 

     Now let's take the guy full of faith, but still reeking of

  alcohol. He believes he is devout. His religious observance

  is scrupulous. He's sure he still believes in God, but sus-

  pects that God doesn't believe in him. He takes pledges and

  more pledges. Following each, he not only drinks again, but

  acts worse than the last time. Valiantly he tries to fight alco-

  hol, imploring God's help, but the help doesn't come. What,

  then, can be the matter?

     To clergymen, doctors, friends, and families, the alco-

  holic who means well and tries hard is a heartbreaking

  riddle. To most A.A.'s, he is not. There are too many of us

  who have been just like him, and have found the riddle's

  answer. This answer has to do with the quality of faith

  rather than its quantity. This has been our blind spot. We

  supposed we had humility when really we hadn't. We sup-

  posed we had been serious about religious practices when,

  upon honest appraisal, we found we had been only superfi-

  cial. Or, going to the other extreme, we had wallowed in

  emotionalism and had mistaken it for true religious feeling.

  In both cases, we had been asking something for nothing.

  The fact was we really hadn't cleaned house so that the

  grace of God could enter us and expel the obsession. In no

  deep or meaningful sense had we ever taken stock of our-

  selves, made amends to those we had harmed, or freely

  given to any other human being without any demand for

  reward. We had not even prayed rightly. We had always said,

  “Grant me my wishes” instead of “Thy will be done.” The

  love of God and man we understood not at all. Therefore

  we remained self-deceived, and so incapable of receiving

  enough grace to restore us to sanity.

   T&T  32  Step Two

 

*For amplification-see Appendix II.

 

 28  ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

 

   Here was the terrible dilemma in which our friend

found himself when he had the extraordinary experi-

ence, which as we have already told you, made him a

free man.

   We, in our turn, sought the same escape with all the

desperation of drowning men.

   (See BB 48 Top)

 

     Under the lash of alcoholism, we are driven to A.A.,

  and there we discover the fatal nature of our situation.

  Then, and only then, do we become as open-minded to

  conviction and as willing to listen as the dying can be. We

  stand ready to do anything which will lift the merciless

  obsession from us.

   T&T 24  Step One

 

        What seemed at first a

flimsy reed, has proved to be the loving and powerful

hand of God. A new life has been given us or, if you

prefer, “a design for living’’ that really works.

   The distinguished American psychologist, William

James, in his book “Varieties of Religious Experience,’’

indicates a multitude of ways in which men have dis-

covered God. We have no desire to convince anyone

that there is only one way by which faith can be ac-

quired.

   (See BB 95:4)

  If what we have learned and felt and seen

means anything at all, it means that all of us, whatever

our race, creed, or color are the children of a living

Creator with whom we may form a relationship upon

simple and understandable terms as soon as we are

willing and honest enough to try. Those having reli-

gious affiliations will find here nothing disturbing to

their beliefs or ceremonies. There is no friction among

us over such matters.

   We think it no concern of ours what religious bodies

our members identify themselves with as individuals.

This should be an entirely personal affair which each

one decides for himself in the light of past associations,

or his present choice.

   (See BB 132 Top)

      Not all of us join religious

bodies, but most of us favor such memberships.

   In the following chapter, there appears an explana-

tion of alcoholism, as we understand it, then a chapter

addressed to the agnostic. Many who once were in

this class are now among our members. Surprisingly

 

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enough, we find such convictions no great obstacle

to a spiritual experience.

   Further on, clear-cut directions are given showing

how we recovered. These are followed by forty-two

personal experiences.

   Each individual, in the personal stories, describes in

his own language and from his own point of view the

way he established his relationship with God. These

give a fair cross section of our membership and a clear-

cut idea of what has actually happened in their lives.

   We hope no one will consider these self-revealing

accounts in bad taste. Our hope is that many alcoholic

men and women, desperately in need, will see these

pages,

   (See BB 17:3, 20:1-2, 153:2)

  and we believe that it is only by fully disclos-

ing ourselves and our problems that they will be

persuaded to say, “Yes, I am one of them too; 

   (See BB 8:1, 30:2, 59 Step 1)

             I must

have this thing.”  (See BB 12:4, 25:1, 47:2, 59 Step 2)